Death’s In The Details


Hello reader, just a side note here, I’ll be putting these poems on my podcast in May and discussing my journey. The podcast is KDOI Podcasting click on the link, there is 3 seasons worth of art, discussion, interviews projects and more.

Today, I challenge you to write a poem that uses the form of a list to defamiliarize the mundane.

Death’s In The Details

16 April 2019

Dedicated to my Bilateral Carpal Tunnel release, bilateral kidney stone laparoscopy, umbilical hernia, tonsillectomy and nasal maximal noduleectomy, 3 level cervical fusion, embolism of a cerebellum fistula and numerous ct scans  MRI’s and x-rays, lastly dedicated to my lumbar puncture – it is a spinal tap don’t let them fool you

No vitamins three days prior

No food or water after midnight the day previous

no aspirin or ibuprofen the day before, you will have to tough it out

No scented soap or body wash if you shower the night before or morning of

you’ll wipe your body down with antibacterial towelettes but not the people that brought you, only you can wipe you down

Leave your dignity at home

come before the sun is up for a surgery at noon

be prepared to pee in a cup on demand,

but make sure you empty your bladder before we wheel you back

inflate your veins so we can put an IV in on the 1st time, 2nd time 3rd time collapse and give it to someone else time

Strip down and put on this gown

you can keep the gripping footies

and now you get to meet the entire surgical team

and their sisters and third cousins

asking you questions about what procedure you are having today,

there are no name tags and everyone is wearing a mask

so when they quiz you in the operating room

there is plausible deniability

Bring someone to drive you

and have them hold all your belongings in a bag too small for a toddler

try to make small talk with everyone who will have a hand inside your body

show them pictures of your kids

that way you have a name and are not simply known as the procedure

they may even fight harder for you if they have a name

in case the unexpected happens

and the pictures of the kids,

well no one wants to answer to them if they screw up

Do what they tell you to stay alive

2014 and 2017 saw me doing all of this five times each year

The lengths I go to in order to ensure

that when I let go and let others decide my fate

I will wake up, with no extra parts inside me

and everything is put back in me in its proper place

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